Desire Can Be Such A Dirty Word
Predetermined outcomes inadvertently place ceilings on what could be possible
DESIRE.
It’s such a loaded word. Overtones of gluttony, attachment to things and outcomes, impulsivity, perpetual dissatisfaction, greed, moral and ethical consequences, distorted priorities causing investment in time and energy in pursuits that ultimately do not contribute to wellbeing or long term happiness.
Desire is often synonymous with chaos and harm.
But before I write more about desire, I want to share a very full on dream I had a few mornings ago. It came in two stages.
In the first dream I saw a really big dog standing on its hind legs being beaten by its owner. It was beaten on its chest, on its face and the dog didn’t resist. Then when the owner finished, the dog went over and sat on a chair and another dog beside it took its place, beaten by its owner.
The second dream is too intricate to explain here except to say that I witnessed a colossal act of someone seeing the God in another and handing them a $100K cheque for work to be carried out in one year’s time. As I witnessed this truly divine interaction, I began to cry uncontrollably. Like really uncontrollably over and over again. There were many people around me and no one could understand what was happening.
They thought something was wrong, yet what I was feeling was uncontrollable joy. Interesting given my recent writing in The Question That Blindsided Me about taking the lid off how much joy I have allowed myself to have.
As you can imagine, I woke up very affected by the dreams but I knew they had valuable information for us all.
I’d also begun to write about the theme of desire earlier in the week but it was incomplete, just hanging in the ether. But now I know why and I will tie it all together.
The first dream with the dogs spoke to the theme of abuse. ‘Abuse’ has been another word in my field the last few weeks as I was interviewed on Thrive The Podcast by Elizabeth Adams and the title she gave to that episode was ‘From Domestic Abuse to Overflowing Abundance’. I was uncomfortable with the term ‘domestic abuse’ as I no longer identify with that part of my life. But it happened, and I decided that if the episode could help someone who is currently suffering what I did 24 years ago to be free, well it would be worth it, so I got out of the way.
We may suffer emotional, mental and physical abuse by another, yet the interpretation of my dream had another nuance - not abuse by another, but self-abuse.
When we don’t unconditionally love and accept ourselves this is abuse.
When we stand in blame and judgment rather than unconditional self-responsibility this is a form of abuse.
When we shame and hate on ourselves this is abuse.
When we live in lovelessness, undeservedness, powerlessness and distrust this is abuse.
That part of the dream called us forward into more honesty with ourselves in a not so comfortable way.
In my uncontrollable joy of what I witnessed in the second part of the dream, these words arrived
Integrity
The Purity of Intention
Generosity
The second part of that dream called us forward into the uncontrollable joy of Integrity, The Purity of Intention and Generosity.
How beautiful is that? What an elixir not only for self-abuse, but also elevating us into new standards of measurement informed by love….and creating a sacred enquiry where we already stand tall or fall short.
Now back to my former incomplete writing about the theme of desire.
Desire is normally associated with an object - with something you get or don't get.
But I’d like to suggest something different.
We can desire from the orientation of form and matter - of things and circumstances and people. Here we desire to have.
Or we can desire from the orientation of the formlessness of our beingness. Here we desire to become.
If we are orienting from the desire to have, we engage ‘doing’ and action to get what we desire. Because we are leading from our human, physical self, we can only get what we’ve desired (or not) and nothing more. We have predetermined the outcome and therefore inadvertently put a ceiling on what is actually possible.
If however we are orienting from the desire to become, all that we desire to have gets taken care of. And not only that, we receive so much more than what we initially desired and not only for ourselves, but for others. Because as we reach into the untapped abundance of who we are we give others permission to do so as well.
Rooted in the desire to be become is a Purity of Intention, Integrity and Generosity
In 2024, my desire is to stand really, really tall in Integrity, The Purity of Intention and Generosity.
How to move from ‘the desire to have’ to ‘the desire to become’?
Observe where you are orienting from. What energy is the desire coming from? Lack? Recklessness? Jealousy? Pride? Resentment? Rescuing? The need for safety? (you’ll never feel safe from this orientation).
Then remember that life is happening for you. This universe is self-correcting. It wants you to know who you are. It seeks to return all that is not essences in love back to love. Therefore sometimes we need to forget. It’s just part of the plan.
Be grateful for the forgetting and for the the calling back home. Take a moment and really feel that in your heart, and smile.
Then ask yourself the question ‘What is the untapped abundance within me that seeks to grace my world? Who am I being called to be?’ I think that is such a beautiful question. Every time I ask myself that, which I am doing daily, I smile. And by the way, ‘the untapped abundance’ is not a thing. It’s about who you are and who you are invited to become.
And then go be that. And if you need support in that becoming, ask for help.
My parting words
My year has been one of sacred business: tending to all that lay in the shadows in the form of more hidden layers of undeservedness, powerlessness and lovelessness and returning it all back to love…and equally aligning with the intelligence of the universal mind as I’ve integrated the premise once again that love has bigger plans than the plans we’ve made for ourselves.
It's certainly been a breakthrough year. I feel clear, free and I know that I’m in energetic, visionary and practical alignment with the next generation of me. It’s an abundant way to end 2023 and to enter into 2024.
I say this at the end of every year.
How you end the year is how you begin the new year so if misalignment exists, take the opportunity now to clean it up.
Here’s how👇🏽
You can do that in the 2 month Untapped Abundance Breakthrough program that I am offering to people who have already coached with me. Even if we only have 1 or 2 sessions this year and continue on after the January holidays, I promise that you’ll start 2024 with new energy. My intention is that you will have ‘that’ breakthrough shift in perception - the one that changes everything - in the first session. That’s a big promise, but it’s true because it’s what has been happening for everyone I have been working with in the last couple of months. As the song goes, I can see clearly now the rain has gone. Just reach out.
Love,
Gisele
"Who am I being called to be?"
Beautiful 🙏