Sacred Leadership

Love has bigger plans than the plans we've made for ourselves

First of all, you'll see that I've migrated over to Substack from the email platform I've written to you before. This platform fosters a sense of community as you can make and see each others’ comments and also share the writing with your friends, family, team.

This piece of writing has been inspired by a dream that I had from 3am until 7am this morning where I woke several times and went back to the same dream. It is also inspired by a discovery call I had yesterday with a cancer patient.

I’ll start with the dream.

In the dream my Dad who passed 12 years ago created the most magnificent concert for my Mum with classical music that was so incredibly beautiful that I was almost overwhelmed by the feelings in my heart. Dad’s intention was to call Mum through this music and whilst I wanted to tell her, I was told to keep it a secret. Then before Mum could hear the music, she died.

As you can imagine, it was quite a disturbing dream and one that I couldn’t shake as I kept going back to the dream after waking several times over those four hours.

I then woke at 7am and my thoughts went to a discovery call I had yesterday with a cancer patient that had been referred to me.

It was one of the most confusing and peculiar calls I’ve ever had as her will to be with me on this exploratory call was absent. It almost felt like I’d phoned the wrong number.

And yet I could read what was going on.

I posed the question - ‘If your life was a book title what would it say?’ She replied with ‘misery’ and I replied with ‘no man’s land’.

There was no will to live. In fact I presented the idea, with caution, that she chose to have cancer as her exit strategy. She agreed. Given her life circumstances, I sensed a gargantuan depth of unacknowledged grief within her and that this was the first and foremost place for her to journey towards. I proposed the idea that her will to live would be found on the other side of surrendering into this grief.

Her response was lifeless and so there was nothing else for me to do.

Disturbed by that call, when I woke at 7am this morning I asked myself the questions ‘Where have I not fully chosen to live? What have I not fully chosen to give life to?’

And I came back to the dream.

In the last month I have been charged with a new mission. In fact it even feels like I am being demanded, that I don’t have a choice to say yes to what I’ve been shown.

One of my favourite Rumi quotes is "Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing there is a field. I'll meet you there."

This field is a field where we meet our multidimensional selves, like I often do when I dream. This field is an invisible space of presence and knowingness, a field where we let go of control, where we surrender to the intuitive pulls. It is a field where miracles are seeded that transcend wrongdoing and righting, our blindspots and thresholds. It is a field that invites us into the experience that Love has bigger plans than the plans we’ve made for ourselves. And thus is it a field of infinite possibility, creativity, self-expression and leadership that transcends linear time, space and doingness.

This field of infinite consciousness is what the limitation and suffering of our personal and global worlds demands us to live from. There is no freedom in the world of judgment and one that orientates only from our physical, human form.

This field is the place from where I live - every day. I devote hours every week to connect and listen, to pay attention. I don’t have sessions on Mondays and I don’t have sessions before 11am. I gift myself with the most perfect support. In fact I am now five years in with my current coach Daniel. And I have other support. Every significant life transformation that I have experienced and that I’ve witnessed with clients has been because we have listened, taken responsibility, surrendered, made connections and followed the pull - consistently.

I have been commanded to make this invisible, inner space of consciousness, this state of beingness explicit with those who are in positions of influence.

I have been demanded to place this field of consciousness on stage, to be fully visible.

I have been invoked to make this the main act with those who can’t help but care about the stuff that really matters because their hearts are so big and their vision is beyond this world.

And thus I have a new container to bring this to life to work explicitly together with the grace that this field affords - a new program entitled Sacred Leadership - Your Inner PhD.

This is a group program for those in Australia where we will physically come together for two days every quarter for one year beginning 6 & 7 June at The Q Station in Manly, Sydney with a kickstart zoom session on 1 May, 5pm - 7pm and regular touch points in between our quarterly get togethers.

Sacred Leadership is your own Inner PhD, your own commitment to making this relationship with infinite consciousness your primary devotion, just as I have demonstrated. Saying yes to this program is saying yes to inviting in Love’s plans that are greater than the plans that you could ever make, again as I am demonstrating here…..because let me tell you Sacred Leadership was never on my personal agenda and yet, I have such knowingness and certainty about the inevitable opportunities and missions that sit in the field of this program.

So if you are in Australia, and this is speaking to you, please connect with me.

If you are not in Australia and are moved by this piece, please connect with me regardless as you can experience this through coaching.

And now back to my questions that were catalysed by my discovery call yesterday ‘Where have I not fully chosen to live? What have I not fully chosen to give life to?’

Up until this morning, whilst I’d said yes to placing this field of consciousness on stage and speaking to it explicitly, because really this feels like a choiceness choice, I was also hesitating, resisting. I was holding back on sharing, on connecting with people who I intuitively see on this program.

Why?

There are many stories I could tell you, including a lack of permission to own my multidimensional nature, to keep it a secret as evidenced in the dream when I couldn’t tell Mum that Dad was calling her (and by the way, I will tell Mum about the concert that Dad put on for her, and that he was calling her).

Ironic heh?

When we are invited to let go and surrender, and step up, our stories will surface for sure. In fact the more we are asked to let go and let God, the more we will want to hold on. We’ll find a million stories to say no, but equally we are offered the opportunity to repose those stories and identities, and to risk ourselves in the name love and truly know through our lived experience that Love indeed has greater plans than the plans we could ever make for ourselves.

Sometimes living from my multidimensional nature feels more real than my relationship with this physical 3D life. And perhaps it is. What I do know is that my life would be lifeless, and once was, without my devotion to this inner world that allows my soul to come undone and not have me die with the music still inside of me.